Sometimes It Isn’t The Right Time

I believe that life is all about the right timing. That we hit the slot machine for the big hit or win the lottery or get the job because we were at the right place at the right time. Also that the, Dear Lord ,helps him/her who helps themselves. Some people call that luck and I call it Divine Guidance. It depends on where we place our values or the depth of our Spiritual quest. I do think though that we can all agree that there are people, usually the nicest of people, that are hit time and time again with tragedy and they come out seemingly even more committed to life. On the other hand we also all know people that fall apart if they break a nail or chip a tooth.

The significance of all of the actions is that, we that do keep an open mind, understand that luck is just a word that is used to answer questions that most of us can not understand. We meet people that we are sure we have meant before. I worked with a man that fought in World War 2 that said when he and his men were under heavy artillery attack he remembered a cave in the area and he was able to lead his men to it and thereby save them all. The only problem was, after coming through it, he realized that there was no way he could have remembered it, as he had never been there before in his life.

Whatever, we call it, if it works for us, and it is working with us, most of us would do well to go along with it. It is that warning that many women talk about having prior to being attacked. When people knew something didn’t feel right, and acted accordingly, to find out if they had gotten on the plane and not changed their minds at the last minute, they would not be alive.

A friend of mine, had looked for years for a friend that had saved him and kept him alive during the Viet Nam war. He had hired a person whose job it was to find people and still had no luck finding the man that had saved his life. Although we had known each other for years, I knew nothing about the fact that he was badly injured and if this guy had not of grabbed him and gotten him on the hellicopter at the time that he did, he certainly would had died. When he decided to share the story with me at a party that night, I didn’t even own a computer, but once I realized that he had been searching for this man, I knew I wanted to find him.

I called my daughter at graduate school and asked her to look in New York as that was where he came from, and an hour later, they had each other’s telephone numbers and were re-united. A couple of years later after my friend had had a chance to take his family back to New York to meet his buddy, that saved him. His friend died of leukemia. My friend is the type that if he hadn’t of had this opportunity, to thank him for saving his life, I’m sure he would have been deeply adversely effected, for life.

Whatever it is, call it what we may, we all own it, it is in our instincts. Some believe it is their conscience, since it has no voice, others think it comes in a dream. More than one person has discussed winning the lottery by dreaming the numbers. Some think it is our angels. The same angels that they believe kept the man under rumble alive for a month in Haiti. It is something that is our own safety net, it does not tell us to go steal children from Haiti or it does not lead us to danger. I am of the mind set that whatever any of us decide to name it, is o.k. with me.

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How Do We Know What Makes Us Happy?

That is an aged old question that has been asked by people for generations. Some say it is impossible to find. Others claim that if we DO NOT find it, or at least search for it, that ill health and misery will definitely follow. Still others think it is over-rated. Some religions even teach that it is the temptation of Satan that guides us to search for happiness; because Adam and Eve broke God’s law in paradise, that mankind (women especially) are intended to suffer, forever. The very best that we can hope for is contentment. Some even teach that women alone cannot go to heaven unless they marry men that are taking Christ place on earth.

I can only tell you how I found real joy and happiness through my own ability and with prayer, and the rest is up to you to decide how important or necessary, it is to you to look for or to seek, happiness.

I have said before, and believe that it is worth repeating, that I learned the love of God, through the teaching of Christ, from the Catholic Church. I do not believe in the darkness taught by the old testament and believe that Christ came to teach ALL of us that we are all God’s children and he loves us unconditionally.

The instructions that He left His apostles with, were all about forgiveness. Not judging as that is God’s place to do and not throwing the first stone as we are all guilty of sin. I believe that the old testament speaks more of the beliefs of the pagans and non Christian views, before Christ came to teach all Nations through His apostles. God wants us to love one another and to do so by acceptance of our differences instead of judgement of them. I left the Church when I found them breaking what they taught me. I still hold those teachings to be Dear, but seperate from what the Church practices today.

I had reached the point previously that ‘turning the other cheek’ simply meant that we were not to approve of the mistreatment done to us by others but instead ask ourselves why we allowed it to happen to us time and time again. Then to begin changing it. It is one of the toughest things in life that I have ever had to do. Standing up for myself when I had always defended everyone else was TERRIBLY difficult for me to do.

It meant eliminating people in my life, whose only interest in me was about what I could do for them. God Blessed me with the inability to hold a grudge or to hate anyone. I had some philosophy and physcology background and instead of looking at my life through the eyes of relgion entirely, I balanced it with all three. I chose quiet moments to meditate and lessened the stress by clearing my mind, of all thought.

I healed through prayer and built my own altar to God in Thanksgiving of prayers answered in my home. I never had to be unkind to people in eliminating them from my life, I only had to start talking about,myself, over their constant problems. In doing so I was no longer the person they wanted or thought they could control, so the relationships died in their own good time. They were able to leave with their dignity in tack and I was able to have the space to confront my own problems and deal with them effectively.

When I accepted that I had to give up all the goals that I had set for myself as I was unable to walk or function due to crippling disease, I simply asked myself, “Now what am I going to do with my life.” I remembered a conversation that my Dad had with a friend of his when I was about 4,approximately 50 years earlier, as clear as if they had spoken two hours before. It was in regards to family papers that his Dad still had on my Dad’s family. I contacted the friend of my father’s and found out only about a month before his children had gone through and cleaned out everything in his home, because they felt he was hanging onto too much clutter.

These papers that I remembered were the only thing that survived and not even he knew why they did, but he knew exactly what I was talking about. From that I spent years doing research and geneology and have done both mine and found the only person in the World that had totally done my husbands back to the 1400′s in Germany. She had records that even the Mormon Church were unable to obtain. She was kind enough to let me go through her years of research and study and let me pick through it to come up with my husband’s direct lineage. Again through what I believe to be Divne Guidance.

From that point, I had studied enough, to know from my interpretations of it, that as children we all know what it is that makes us happy, as during that period of time in our lives, we simply act on the things that we enjoy. It is public schools that insist we be on the same page at the same time and the dysfunctions of families, as well as the pressures of life that totally drain any and all creative energy from us.

I simply went back in my memory, to the point where I enjoyed coloring and started oil painting. There has been many other things like travel,collecting the physical history to match from walnut furniture to porcelain and glassware of the era, annonymous giving, random acts of kindness, etc. etc. that I have added to my life and I have never had a day since that I do not wake up totally filled with gratitude for a new day!

I know for a fact that happiness does exist. It has nothing to do with Satan. Just, as we parents, want our children to be happy, so does God want us to be happy. Until we are, we are not following the path that we should be taking. True happiness is so much more than what it has been cut out to be. It is not gained or earned at the expense of another or because others tell us what to do. If we are unhappy it is because we choose to be or it is not a priority in our lives. We sometimes even ,without awareness of it, are allowing other people to totally interfer with our own happiness. We all must grieve first but not forever. We must seek happiness in the way that it works for us, as an individual.

God Blessed me with the best of husband, children, son-in-law, and grandchildren,for me, so I spend everyday feeling humbled by it. Most all things in life are based on our attitudes and how hard we work at getting rid of all negatives. The fact that we will retire comfortably after years of hard work does play a certain part in it as it frees me of the stress of feeling like I have to earn money. If that was all I had though, I haven’t a doubt that I would be miserable.

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